October. Here in this dank, unfamiliar kitchen
I study my father's embarrased young man's face.
Sheepish grin, he holds in one hand a string
of spiny yellow perch, in the other
a bottle of Carlsbad beer.
In jeans and denim shirt, he leans
against the front fender of a 1934 Ford.
He would like to pose bluff and hearty for his posterity,
wear his old hat cocked over his ear.
All his life my father wanted to be bold.
But the eyes give him away and the hands
that limply offer the string of dead perch
and the bottle of beer. Father, I love you
yet how can I say thank you, I who can't hold my liquor either,